I still remember that day, 9th February 2021. As usual, I was sitting at my desk and staring at my laptop. Basically, I was daydreaming. My brain was talking to me.
“Usha, what are you doing? Do you think you are living your life?
This is what you wanted from your life? Are you even happy? Is this your life?
You know you have so much potential. Use it, do something.”
“No, I am not happy. This is not what I wanted in my life. This can’t be my purpose for life. But…if this is not then what it is?
I was struggling to know my life goals, my dreams. I had no skills. I had lost my confidence. lost my enthusiasm, lost my energy, and started feeling guilty for myself. I was kind of broken and destroyed.
Suddenly one day I got a call.
Tring Tring!!! Tring Tring!!!
Hello?
Am I talking to Usha Jasiwar?
Yes.
This is Balakrishna from Toastmasters. We got your query.
Yes Yes… I wanted to join toastmasters. I wanted to build myself. I have read everything about your club on the website. Your meeting timing and all.
That’s nice. Where are you from?
I am from Vasco.
Okay, we have a club in Vasco. If you don’t mind may I ask Vasco Toastmaster members to contact you?
Yeah Sure.
And this is how I joined Toastmasters.
Good Evening Dear Toastmasters and Guest,
Please fasten your seat belt as I Usha Jaiswar, the piolet of my life taking you on a journey called “The Purpose”.
So Let’s begin.
I belong to a middle-class family and for a middle-class person the career options available are either you become an engineer or a doctor. I chose “Engineering” as I wanted to make my father proud.
Engineering days were not a piece of cake for me. I know what I had to go through. Most of the time I might be bunking the classes or sleeping in the class. God, I can’t even understand what the professors were speaking.
You must have taare zamin movie right?
My situation was somewhat like that.
I hope you can imagine it now.
Since I was a hardworking girl and with god grace, I found my best friend “Ragini” the topper of the class. She uses to prepare and submit my assignments while I was sleeping in hostel. She uses to explain me things that I couldn’t understand.
Somehow I managed to clear my engineering.
But It seems my life was not happy with me.
My life was like a boxing ring. Where I and my life were the opponents.
Every time I tried to climb up my life was pushing me down.
My life was like
Oh!!!! You looking for a Job.
Dishoom!!!! failed. Lost confidence.
Oh!!!! You are in love.
Dishoom!!!! failed. I was in depression for 1 year. Lost health.
My life was punching me so hard that I kept on failing.
I failed
Failed
and Failed.
Whenever I saw myself failing my heart was breaking little by little. I was frustrated, irritated, nervous, and scared. I was losing hope. I was feeling like a loser. somewhere I was losing myself.
One day when I was going through my Facebook account, I saw one post “Life Transformation”
What’s that? How is this going to change my life? Is it even work?
Let me try it. let me search and talk to these people if they can help me.
Somehow I managed to get in contact with them and had a session with them which was approximately 1 hour. That day that lady made me visualize what I wanted from my life.
That was the moment I saw myself living. I saw myself standing on stage surrounded by people and motivating them. I was telling them about the purpose for the life.
And The SMILE, That was the most genuine smile anyone can ever have.
Since that day I decided. I spoke to myself.
Get up Usha, let’s do it. I don’t know how many times you will fail but you are still breathing. Many more things to do it. So let’s begin the journey. start from zero, get new skills, love your self and gain confidence.
Things will be OK.
That day I found my purpose. And my first step toward my dream is to join toastmasters. So here I am.
In the end, I just wanted to say. I don’t know how much time I will take but I’ll try my best and within 5–10 years I wanted to become a life transformation coach so that I can guide people like me who are struggling to find the life purpose and when I die, I can tell to my God.
“God, Thank you for this beautiful life. I did your job”.
Thank You.
